I feel: sad, put-together, forgotten, loved, angry, lethargic, nastalgic, hyper, stressed, depressed, strung-out, annoyed, happy.
I have felt all these things in my short life. These are normal human emotions.
Many people feel like happiness is a destination: that one day they'll have everything they dreamed of and be happy.
It isn't; you won't.
From the words of Julian from One Tree Hill: "Happiness is a feeling, an emotion: not a destination."
Happiness is a feeling much like thirst or hunger. It comes and goes. It's okay to feel not great every now and then.
We are always waiting for that one thing (or things) to make us happy. In my case it's that special someone, but happiness isn't going to find us one day and stay.
No one is ever happy all the time.
Things aren't going to make us happy.
We can have great things in our lives and still feel a little miserable.
Miserable is just feeling.
But so is happiness. You can feel happy just like you feel mad, or sad. It's just a feeling.
While happiness is not always the feeling you have, joy can be prevalent.
Joy and happiness are often confused as the same thing. They aren't.
There have been many a day that I didn't feel the least bit happy, but I still had joy in my heart.
Joy is something that lives within you. Something that is put there and stays.
It's that little voice that in the midst of a trial that is whispering that tomorrow will be brighter.
I'm here to say that the only reason for the joy in my heart is Jesus.
He put it there. He gives me my hope. He is the reason I have all that I have.
He gives me joy.
I hope that you can find the joy that I have in Jesus, too.
One Tree Hill, Julian Baker.