I don't know what I'm about to say..
I just need to say something.
I need to say anything to get my mind off of this.
I don't know who I am.
I know who I was.
I know who I should be.
And who I want to be.
But who I AM?
I feel lost.
There are so many things bouncin' around in my head right now.
So many options, answers, scalding memories, red-hot flashbacks.
I don't like it.
I want to be me again.
I'm here somewhere, right?
I have to be.
I'm ranting and not making any sort of sense.
For that I am sorry.
You don't even have to read this, really.
It's probably not worth the five minutes it took me to write it.
I need honesty.
I need You.
But somewhere along the way, I lost You too.
I miss You more than I miss me.
Because without You, there is no me.
Without You, there is no meaning.
Bring me back to that familiar place of forgiveness and grace.
I can't do this myself.